‘What’s in a name? That which we call a rose
By any other name would smell as sweet.’ – Shakespeare
It’s been more than four years since I left him, yet only recently can I hear or read his name and not feel as though I’m being strangled. Now, I take a deep breath and pause to remind myself that I’m safe, that just because someone shares his name does not mean they share the same personality traits.
I’ve spent quite some time deliberating over whether to use his name in my writing. If I use it, writing about him and his impact upon me would be so much more simple. I want to write it right now, yet in this moment, as I consider this my heart rate is accelerating.
I cannot let him have control over my thoughts, he held that power for far too long. For that reason here it is:
Brent, it truly is just a name.